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PAIGE'S  TOP  3 

OBVIOUSLY OUR MARRIAGE CAME WITH A LOT OF SURPRISES, BUT THE SURPRISE OF JOSH'S INJURY ACTUALLY CREATED THIS FALSE SENSE OF EASE WHEN WE LEFT THE HOSPITAL AND GOT INTO THE REAL WORLD. I CONSTANTLY TOLD MYSELF THAT LIFE WOULD BE A BREEZE WHEN WE STARTED OUR OWN LIVES, BUT IT WAS ACTUALLY A LOT MORE LIKE GOING FROM KINDERGARTEN TO COLLEGE. 

1. I WAS SURPRISED AT HOW MUCH WORK IT TOOK TO JUST MAKE A HOUSE RUN. WE HAD NEVER TRULY OWNED ANYTHING BEFORE. I KNEW THERE WAS A RESPONSIBILITY THAT CAME WITH OWNERSHIP, BUT I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH COMMUNICATION, SCHEDULING, PLANNING, AND ADJUSTING WAS REQUIRED JUST TO MAKE IT WORK ON TIME EVERYDAY. 

2. I WAS SURPRISED THAT HAVING MONEY MADE LIFE COMPLICATED. WHEN JOSH WAS AN E4 IN THE INFANTRY, WE MADE NO MONEY, THUS, LIFE WAS SIMPLE. WHEN HE GOT INJURED, HE CONTINUED TO GET PAID, I GOT PAID BY THE ARMY TO TAKE CARE OF HIM, AND WE ONLY HAD TO PAY CELL PHONE BILLS. WE DIDN'T SPEND MUCH MONEY IN THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE WE COULDN'T DO MUCH. SO WHEN WE HAD SAVINGS AND STARTED MAKING OUR OWN MONEY, I WAS SURPRISED THAT IT TOOK MORE PLANNING TO OBTAIN THE THINGS WE WANTED THAN BEFORE. AUTODRAFTING BILLS AS SOON AS A PAYCHECK CAME IN HUMBLED US REALLY QUICK AND I WAS AMAZED AT HOW MUCH WE ARGUED OVER THINGS WE COULD AFFORD!

3. I WAS SURPRISED THAT I BECAME THE COMBATIVE ONE. JOSH IS A PEACEMAKER (HARD 9 ON AN ENNEAGRAM) AND WHEN IT CAME TO DISAGREEMENT, HE WOULD LITERALLY DO ANYTHING TO PREVENT OR STOP AN ARGUMENT, EVEN APOLOGIZING FOR THINGS HE DIDN'T DO! I HATE CONFLICT MYSELF, BUT I AM VERY OPINIONATED. I WAS SURPRISED AFTER THE FIRST FEW YEARS TO SEE HOW EASILY I COULD ENGAGE WITH JOSH. HOW FAST I COULD DISREGARD HIS FEELINGS. I DID NOT LIKE THAT ABOUT MYSELF BUT IT WAS LIKE A REFLEX THAT I COULDN'T TURN OFF. (THANK YOU MARRIAGE COUNSELING!)

IT'S CRAZY HOW UNCHARTED TERRITORY CAN TRIGGER PEOPLE. I BROUGHT MY PLANS AND ASSUMPTIONS OF MARRIAGE WITH ME TO THE ALTER AND WHEN IT WASN'T WORKING OUT LIKE I ASSUMED, I DIDN'T POSTURE MYSELF IN HUMILITY, I BELIEVED JOSH NEEDED TO MAKE AN ADJUSTMENT. *sigh* 

I PROMISE I'VE GROWN A LITTLE!